Transformation Tuesday

Hello My Sparkly Friends! It is Tuesday! And it is not too late to start acheving your goals.

1. What have you always wanted to do?

2. Are you doing what you love?

3. Do you wake up in the morning ready to start your day?

If you answered no to the above questions you are not alone. I often feel that way. I wake up and I am not exicited to start my day. But that is no way to live. You need to be thankful for each day. We are here for a reason. Let's not waste anymore time just going through the motion of each day.

When you decide to start to achieve your goals the begining is always the hardest. But let's not give up. Let's acheive them. Together we can motivate one another to acheive anything we put our mind too. So Do Not Give Up You Can Do It!

Thank you for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends! I hope you have a teffific Tuesday..... Till Next Time Don't Give Up!

T.G.I.M - Motivational Monday

I have decided to do a weekly post on Monday's and it is going to be called Motivational Monday! Many times we look at Monday as a unmotivated day. We do not look forward to it. On Sunday we start to dred Monday. I am very guilty of that. I have spent more Sunday's than I would like to admit dreading Monday.

I no longer want to do that. I want to be motivated by Monday, so will you join me? Let's no longer look at Monday as a dreadful day. Let's look at it has a Motivational Day!

Lately I feel like I am just going through the motion of life. Not achieving my goals. I have came to realize that I am the only one stopping me. There is no else preventing me from achieving my goals but myself. Suffering with a mental illness is hard, there are many days that I just want to give up, and I give into those feelings. But in the long run it is you vs. you. If you do not acheive your goals you have no one to blame but yourself. So let's motivate one another. Let's help each other achieve our goals......

So it is T.G.I.M Thank God It's Monday! What are you going to do today to help achieve your goals tomorrow?

Thank you for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends! Here's to a motivational Monday! Hope your day was AWESOME. Turn in tomorrow for Transformation Tuesday!

2015 Strides for Life 5K Walk/Run

This past weekend I did the 2015 Strides for Life 5K Walk/Run. It was a blast. I put together Team Jelly Sparkle. We raised $305 in total! We also won Most Spirited Team Award. Here are some of my favorite pictures from Saturday!

I loved that my friends did this with me in honor of my Jaslynn. This is going to be a yearly tradition. We do need to protect our title next year you know!

Thanks for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends!

Ever Have One Of Those Days??

Yup, I have that day today......it wasn't one thing in particular that happened it was more like a stream line of things........

All I wanted to do was give up today, roll up in a ball and just cry. But of course I am unable to do that well, because I was at work. But believe me if I could I would have.

But I need to remember, which I have a very hard time doing especially lately. I don't know if it is due to what I am going through with my mental illness. I want to believe that things will get better, and everything happens for a reason, and what does not kill you makes you stronger.

But I am having such a hard time doing that. I can't even get exicited about my trip that we have coming up. I mean come on who would not be exicited to be on a 7 day cruise with there family? Me, that's who. I am hoping this feeling will pass, and I once again will be happy again. I had a friend tell me, go on your trip and come back "Happy Hope" you have not been "Happy Hope" in so long. I even have my kids telling me to please smile, and be happy. That is all I want is to be happy. Happy Hope. I just feel like sometimes that person may never come back.

I am sorry to be such a grumpy sparkly unicorn my Sparkly Friends. But I wanted to thank you for stopping by today and listening to me vent. Here is to tomorrow being better fingers crossed.

September is a Busy Month.....

Welcome September! Here we are September 1, 2015. Where has the time gone? It is like we blinked and here we are in September.

September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month! I have never celebrated it but this month we are! We will celebrate in honor of my daughter Jaslynn who lost her battle with brain cancer in 2005 and just 5 years old.

On September 26th I will be attending the Stride for Life 5K Walk/Run......we will be running in memory of my daughter Jaslynn.

September is also the month I will begin hitting the gym and working out.....I did my very first workout yesterday and it felt good to be back at the gym even though I could hardly do anyting for being so out of shape. But you have to start somewhere.

Here are 5 ways to start an AWESOME month....so let's make September 2015 the best month so far! Who is with me?!?!?!

Thank you for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends! I hope you have a terrific Tuesday!

Bye August......It's Been Real

I have had my ups and downs with my mental illness. I will be the first to admit that it is hard. Having to live with anixety, depression and schizophrenia is very hard. Lately my bad days have trumped my good days. There are days that I just lay in bed and do not want to get out. Just lay there forever. But I know I can not do that. I need to go to work to provide for my family, I need to get up for my kids. But between the feelings of helpness and the voices I just want to give up the majorirty of the time. It is hard for me to admit these things online. Where the will be FOREVER. But I want for others who suffer from the same things to know they are not alone. By looking at me you may never know what I really go through. To be honest I really do not talk about it with anyone. Not family, friends (the few that I have), or the people I work with.

I have had goals the past few months and have not been able to accomplishe any of them. That makes me feel horrible. It makes me feel like a complete failure. Like I am unable to accomplish anything. I am taking my medicines everyday and I am trying to learn how to breathe and not let things get to me.

September is a big month for me. It would have been my Jaslynn's 16 birthday. I am going on a cruise this month! We are going to celebrate my mom's 64th Birthday, My sons are going to start football and I am going to compete in my first 5K for the San Antonio Eye Bank in memory of my daughter Jaslynn. I may not be able to reach all of my goals that I would like to accomplish but I am ok with that now. I am going to take one day at a time and just breathe. Because with the end of August comes a new month September.

So here is to a new month, a new month of Hope and a new month for a new beginning.

Thank you for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends. I apologize for being MIA. But here is to the last day of August. I am going to make today AWESOME and I am ready to welcome a new month. Can you believe it 4 more months and 2015 is over?!?!?!?! It is never too late to start on your goals!

I want to.......

As I was going through my phone today I came across a note that I put in my phone......Here it is 

I wrote that on February 20,2013 and have been trying to achieve the same goals since before writing that post.  A few days ago I decided to change the way I live my life.   If you have read my post before I suffer from anxiety, depression and schizophrenia.  It can be a lot to handle.  

But I no longer want to live my life wishing I had started to do the things I've always wanted to do.  

I want to live.  I want to breath again. I'm sick and tired of always being sick and tired.  

I have a wonderful family who loves me and awesome friends.  Sometimes the demons in my head take over and I struggle.  But I don't want to live that way anymore.  I know it is always going to be a struggle for me.  I'm not magically be cured from my mental illness.  But I can start by changing my life a little bit.  I've changed my diet and yesterday was the first day I started to eat clean.  I'm going to start working out and try to get my energy back.  

I'm on Seroquel and Celexa.  Seroquel has caused me to gain a lot of weight which is making me very self-conscious.  

But I want to start living my life.  Thanks for stopping by today my Sparkly Friends! I really appreciate you stopping by.