I’m not good at this…

Well it’s been 6 months since my last post and I hate to say I’m not doing any better 😞.  I’ve changed medicine again.  I was on a long lasting injection for my Schizoaffective Disorder but unfortunately my insurance does not cover it so the doctor had to find a replacement.   I’ve been on this new injection for about week now, it helps a little but I still have hallucinations and hear voices.  

As far as my depression it’s not better 🥺 I feel hopeless, alone and worthless most days.  It’s a struggle to get out of bed even to take a shower.  I have little interest in doing anything.  I feel horrible because it’s the summer and the kids are bored but I just can’t find the strength to do anything.

I just want to be excited again even though I couldn’t tell you the last time I was truly excited about life.  I’m not suicidal.  I couldn’t do that to my kids.  I look at them and know that I have to hang on because of them.  

Hopefully I’ll post again sometime this year.  I don’t want to say that I’m going to post the next couple of days and I don’t I’d feel horrible about it.  Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read this.  If you’re feeling the same way know that you’re not alone.

XOXO, 

Hope Angeline